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12:08 AM

Cassian Dearie.

I noe u are happily reading my blog.
But if u spill one word out, Im gona get u for it.!!! RAWR!
And pls stop annoying me.

With love,
Ying.

12:59 AM

9:54 PM

ARRHHH!!!
I miss you.
Where are you?
Im on the verge of bursting in tears.
I need my chill pill.

11:23 PM

Woots. Im so bored now. Staring at 2 marketing papers with 5 blinking windows. LALALA.
Ok. Im merely blogging so that HER picture will not scare your soul away and also to show Qing that I NOT only post pictures of En and I. Wahaha.

I just love Ling's phone so much. Makes my skin look so flawless.

Wahaha. Sexy girl in *ahem* necklace.

Okay. Back to settling the 5 blinking windows and 2 papers. Buai.

11:53 PM

I didnt expect myself to do this but...
HARLOW!! GET A LIFE PLEASE!!!!
If the person doesnt like you, than get a grip and move on. Stop sticking your arse around and be a nuisance. For all u noe, I have known her for like more than half of my life and you?
Dont push ur luck further or u will totally regret what u did.



.
Dont say I didnt warn u.... =]

2:22 AM

Just realise boys during puberty are much more annoying than usual and unfortunately, my brother happened to fall into that category.

He was hugging the computer busy Mapling and refused to budge.

Me: Ae... Share the bag with me leis.
Him: You so auntie, need to carry such an expensive bag for wad...?

WAHLAU! Just how annoying can he get lor and I thought hugging the com for the entire day was bad enough. Argh!!! BOYS!!!

Wait till I get my hands on ur ugly photo.

1:10 AM

HAPPY NEW YEAR~!

I know Im 10 days late, but still. HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Caught Deathnote 2 with the Ling,Pearly,JieYing and Jackson and it was free!
I just love L and Light, although both of them died in the end. Misa is so cute lar. Just love the way she kept whinning about how much she likes Light, but shes a typical airhead lar. Overall, super nice shows. Lots of twists and darn exciting. Ohya, did I mentioned that it was free? =DDD

Met En after the movie. That stupid woman actually waited for me for nearly 1 hr lar. Told her to meet the rest first but she refused, she just loves me too much. Reached town, met Clara and MeiQi bought some drinks and walked over to PS. Had saugages at Rocky Master's, super cheap and super nice place to chill.

Confessions to Ling and sent a msg to wish Mummy 'Happy New Year'. The only person I sent a msg to wish can. Countdown along the streets, super fun. Caught glimpse of the fireworks, then went over to find Wilson. Initially our plan was to join him and friends for pool but his friends were too scary, the bunch of us decided to leave.

Walked over to Marina Mandarin cause a certain someone wanted to use the toilet there. Ended up being stalked by this red shirt bangala. Tailed us all the way frm Rendevouz to Raffles City. Reached MM and the place was closed, have to walked to MS instead.

Left the place, walked to cityhal with the intention of catching the Guinness bus. None came. Clara's dad came over to fetch MeiQi and her. En and a super tired,drowsy,drunk Ying continued slacking, crapped and continued waiting for bus. Got to know this super boring Zastard. En abandonned me and went to talk to Guinness guys instead.

Got to know this super cute guy by the name of Patrick and his friend whose name escapes me. His darn cute. Ahbeng yet super smart, NTU student somemore. Just the kind of guy that I will fall for. Not like Zastard. But too bad, he finds me a flirt. Which is sooooooo NOT true. Im a devoted girl.

The guys went home and still no bus. Tried hailing and calling cab but to no avail. Desperately called up my friends but all were clubbing. =/ How come all my friends look like kids, if not I wont be stranded le. Bo bian. Called up Daddy but he refused to come fetch me.

Started walking around cityhall till I needed to pee. Settled for chijmes toilet where En so her beloved AngMoh. They wanted to hit on her I think but cause they were too lazy so they just flirt her with their smiles. Took some photos then Daddy called and finally agree to pick me up like after an hour. -faints.

Dad came, dropped us off at Yck cause he needed to work. En gave me 15bucks to cab home cause I was cashless and was simply too shagged. Finally reached home at 6am.

Anyhows, HAPPY BELATED NEW YEAR!

Can someone please offer to send me home next year say I still didnt manage to get my license? Pretty please. =]

Ohya. Theres a new girl on the block and outting to ECP. Will update when I get my hands on the pictures.
Cheers!

12:07 AM

WAHAHA! Its his lost. c=

Im gona be away. Miss me. =]

8:48 AM

Christmas Eve was eventful. Lotsa crying, laughters and more laughters.

Crying over him marks the beginning of Christmas and the end of Christmas too. I promised him that I will only cry for a day and I had a duper hard time trying to cry ytd. =/

Anyhows, God... Please spare me from seeing him anywhere k? c=

After the series of crying over certain bastards. The bunch dropped by at this nearby bar and thats when we started getting HIGH!

I ordered the worst drink ever made, Bloody Mary! I think, it seems much much worst than vodka orange. Its like tomato mix with pepper, and now to think of it. It smells pretty much like menses. =/ Oh well. Drop that. Cause I started stealing everyone elses drink. Wahaha. Even the worst drinks tastes nicer then mine. I cant really remember what drinks there were.

Think Qing ordered JimBeanCola, Ling Seabreeze, Henry some super high % alcohol, Jason 3 bottles of Cobra[very nanting rite] and Jason's friend some red wine I think. Wasnt thinking straight at that point of time.

Played games and got more drunk and more high and I think I was drunk but I could still manage to walk a straight line. Wahaha. Im just tooo good. Though I think I finished like 1.5 bottle of the Cobra though. Wahaha. It feels like lar. As much as I loathe alcohol, it still tastes nicer than my drink. c=

Then the bill came, wayyyy before we asked for it. Must be because they saw a bunch of drunkards and were afraid that we will be too drunk to pay. Anyhows, thats when I realised I lost my wallet. Damn lar! I was even too drunk to anxious. All I did was like searching for it like it didnt matter. Heng my IC wasnt inside ar, if not I sure faint.

I was searching around the bags when it suddenly dawn on me that my atm card was inside and I read my atm password out loud in one of the stores earlier on. I know, Im horrible when Im drunk. I can laugh and cry hysterically in a matter of moments.

Luckly the guys were much more sober. Thank god for guys! Wahaha. They managed to get the bank's number and I had the most EMBARRASSING conversation with the operator.

Op: Hello, thanks for calling DBS. How may I assist u?
Me: Eh, I lost my wallet leis. How ar?
Op: Huh?
Me: Orh. Cause my ATM card was in my wallet.
Op: Oh. Can I have your name please.
Me: Erm. Cindy Goh Jie Ying.
Op: IC num?
Me: S89xxxxxH
Op: Acct Num?
Me: Huh. My acct num? erms... I duno leis. It was in my wallet. I only remember that it was 094 sth sth.
Op: Ok. [And there was this long string of administration stuff.]
Me: Eh, is there anyway to check if anyone used my card? Cause I read my pin out loud. So now EVERYBODY knows my pin.
Op: Sure. [Senses frustration in his voice.]

After ensuring that my card was safe, the operator very much wanted to hang up the phone.

Op: Thank u for calling DBS.
Me: Huh
Op: Thank u for calling DBS.
Me: Orh.Ok.
-Silence.
Me: EH!!! WAIT!!!!
Op: Huh? Sorry.
Me: MERRY XMAS!

That is what happens when you have a conversation with a drunkard. Think he almost wanted to kill me.

After we left the bar, we started a Foam fight. Argh. Got a foamy, messy and dirty. Wahaha.
No thanks to the bunch of 11 with 22 spray. Wahaha. Then hitch a ride home. Thanks a dozen HENRY! Sorry for stepping on your foot. =/

Anyhows, yesterday was fun fun fun! Minus the crying of cause. Haha.

Thanks girls, I probably would have died if not for u guys!
-hearts

11:51 PM

Im letting go.

I was dumb and ignorant about the hints you have dropped. I thought that there was still a slim chance that you will like me. I was so wrong.

I had no idea if you were misleading me the whole while. Whenever I asked you if the guy I like would accept me, you told me he would and would definitely like me. Moreover you knew that the person was you all along! I can still remember vividly how you rejected me, how you told me that you nolonger likes me. The look.

So why did you lie to me? Why mislead me when u felt nothing for me? If you didnt misled me, I would have just liked you in secret.

Why the hugs and kisses. Why the look when I called you sweet names. Although I know alot of guys, I dont flirt.

You told me that I would be able to feel if the other person likes me, but I couldnt feel it from you. Even when u said 'I like you' looking at me in the eye. I know you were trying to tell me something at that point of time, but I chose not to acknowledge it.

It all makes sense now. How you didnt reply my msges. When you said that SHE didnt allow you to smoke. I was foolish enough to really think it was me. You are really a good actor, I really dont uds you anymore. I nolonger know when is the real you and when you are acting. I really cant differentiate.

You probably found me too clingy, and very much unlike me. I know that. But it was merely because I was trying all means to secure you. You know me, Im never a clingy person. I only did that, because I felt that I was about to lose you...soon. But now, Im going to be alrite. Cuz Im a pretty girl, and pretty girls have got tons of guys around... waiting.

Thanks for the good times we had in the past 3 years. Right now its all going to be part of my precious memories. Thanks for letting me know how it felt to like, love and hate. I will definitely cherish the next guy who comes along.

The love we have had long turned into kinship. I dint feel heartbroken at all, I just felt like crying. Grieving for losing someone who was once so close to me. Who once soo uds me.

All endings marks the start of a new beginning.

Kenneth, I loved you.
No, I love the Kenneth you used to be.

11:42 AM

Its okay. Its just the 9534753857345 time I have missed him today. =]

6:17 PM

If I die tml, please let him know that I still love him.

12:48 AM

First try and I splat everything out along with some saliva. =/

1:58 AM

Am I supposed to feel happy for him?

I thought I was supposed to, but why am I feeling this way.

FCUK!

Dun you know that ilu too.!

4:56 PM

WAHAHA! Since I cant get a single POA shit into my PUNEEY brain, I shall blog. WAHAHA.

So here goes....

I shall start having lots and lots of flings! =DDDD

3:19 AM

IM NOT LIKE YOUR EVERYOTHER GIRL!

GET THAT?

_l_

2:35 AM

I lost the a pendant that Im not supposed to.

I remembered the first time I lost our necklace, I was close to tears. Being only 14 or 15 at that point of time, I was at lost and did not know what to do. I wasnt sure if u would scold me, reprimand me for being so careless and not cherishing something which was supposed to mean so much. But, you didnt. Instead yours to me and told me to take good care of it, not to lose it again.

Thereafter, I saw the ring as a promise to our relationship. Something which signifies us. Yet, u threw it away. The only thing left which reminds me of us, was the pendant n bracelet. I always thought that I would be able to keep it save, but instead, I lost it. Guess its really about time for me to let go.

Im sorry

1:18 AM

Wahaha. I just saw something which was super cliche.

'' Love is not about finding someone whom you can live with, but finding someone whom you cant live without. ''

WAHLAU! Super cliche lar. Cant believe that it was actually from one of my wilder friends. =/
-Faints. What has the world become!


All I need is someone to pamper me.
Calls me sweetnames everyday.
Be there for me.
And gets me a gift once in awhile. =DDDDDDDD

12:14 AM

WAHAHA. Although Ling and I dont look alike, but both of us sound and think identically. Be it whether we are looking at trivial stuff or sth trivial. Wahahaha. GUYS ARE DUMB!

Went over to Da Xiong's place yesterday, intended to do our marketing project but we ended up thrashing his place up. Wahaha. His house is a really great place to slack lar. Super cosy, especially his bed. Can just lay there for the whole day.
Ate, drink, played, slack, more eating and watching ghost clips! His parents were really nice too Although his dad looks alittle scary. Ohwell.

Yea! Mustafa tomorrow, den tbs, stats and then supper!!

Im a happy happy girl.
Cause I will nolonger fear of the day u leave me. C=

Im nolonger sure if im doing the right thing. Was it right to lie to u that there was someone i like? True enough, the both of us need a break from each other. Yet i didnt want to, cause i nolonger uds u like i used to. So i rather just be friends. Being friends would mean no more quarrels, no more anger and frustration, because there isnt any expectations. I wont feel dissapointed cause there wont be anything that I will expect from you.
Though i will still fear if you still like me, but at least u wun feel like u are obliged to like me or love me. But, I still do. =]

8:44 PM

Introducing.... Me and my new found twin!!!!

This is what happens after 5 long years of friendship. A relatively ugly picture actually. Wahaha. Think we look alike cause I look super ugly in that picture. Wahahaha

Funny why Ling and I dont quite look alike. Or do we?

12:58 AM

I have became so involved with you, I seem to have forgotten about all the other important things.

Life's a blast! Okay, thats too much a word to be used to describe my life but who cares! Afterall, its MY life.

Realise there is actually quite alot of politics going on. Although I have already somewhat anticipated it but nomatter how prepared someone is, there are definitely bound to be loopholes and ultimately nobody will win the war.

Went to Sentosa with Chrispy and Chrunchie today! Took tons of pictures, slacked around, walk like a million miles before we finally reached sentosa. Walked around Harbour Front Centre to look for our beloved baguette, wasabi chicken floss, naan and 2 kimchi bread!! Our lunch ok, siao siao. Budget lunch. Wahaha. And Chonnie bought us all a red hairband! Very pretty one hor, its in shinny, glittery red. =DD Thanks Chonnie. Hugs-

Im really sick of everything. Although I appreciate the happy times we had together, but they are just part of our precious memories. The quarrels that we had far exceeded the happy wants that we had, and its driving me CRAZY!
The things that you have once promised me, that you will be there for me, to do everything just for me, just adds on to my dissapointment and distrust towards you. I really wish that I could believe and trust you. However you let me down time and again.

Thank you so much for the times that you have been there for me. =]
Right now, Im just waiting for your msg. To see if you remember your promise.

12:19 AM

WAHLAU! I just read sth in that Chrunchie woman's blog.

''cindy reads because she wanna see chio bu and shuai ge. she ought to die''

WAD THE HELL!!

Hmms. Seriously, why do I even like you? =/

4:10 PM

CHRISPY CONNIE JUST SMATCHED THE KEYBOARD.

Haha. The two of us are blogging in class after a wild goose chase for CHRUNCHIE the GREEN TEA slurpper. CHRISPY and I were running around school looking for CHRUNCHIE after she stole our fries. We almost wrecked the guys toilet just to search for her and shes like describing the whole scene in class right now. =/ As I was saying, we almost wrecked the guys toilet only to find her hiding in class eating our dear fries.

Surprisingly she is not afraid that we wont treat her dinner and supper today. Wahaha. ]

I HATE YOU, ORANG UTAN!!! STUPID!!! IDIERT!!! ARGH!!!

3:23 PM

After a long long time, I have finally gotten my adapter[aka released from pluto]! Tons of things have happened during this period of time, yet I've forgotten many of them. Only comes to show that I have got terrible memory. Argh.

Anyhows, caught Step Up today, Channing Tatum is sooo cute lar. He so resembles Chad Michael Murray or sth, cant remember how to spell his name. A super nice show minus the first 30 minutes. Wahaha. Then cup noodles, chilled and home. Ok, boring. Bye.....

12:37 AM

HIYEE. The martians send me over to Ahling's hse with the purpose of sweeping her room. However given the kinda relationship I have with her. Its near impossible that she will do sth like that to me. So HERE I am. WAHAHAHA.

I really wish to know what I want, but there wasnt a chance. Cause you are close to NEVER there.

9:07 PM

HIYEE.
Im blogging in pluto. Sorry for the lack of updates, had to sneak into the general control room of the spaceship in order to blog so be honoured. Unfortunately they captured me instead of the *toot* palace maid, cuz she was too short and they miscued. So now they hold me till they capture her. Oei PM!!!! Be there at siloso beach at 12 midnight tml ok. BYE!

4:08 PM

Harlo. Im blogging, feel fortunate ok... =/

11:59 AM

The Pwincess and The Frog

Once upon a time, there lived a [presuming] beautiful pwincess and a fugly ugly frog. One fine day, the pwincess took a stroll in the forest and saw the fugly ugly frog. Surprisingly, the frog managed to talk the pwincess into kissing his stinky and slimely mouth with the help of his marvelous sweet talking power. Unfortunately, to his surprise, he did not turn into a handsome prince.....

WAHLAU!!!! DONT BE DUMB LAR!
U are a TOAD, not a FROG! So please stop your attempt to eat swan's meat. Forgive me for my terrible english. Oh well.

Im a hime. =]

12:53 AM

Geesh. Im missing a WHOLE lot of people. Working sure equates to NO LIFE! =/

Waiting for the day when I forget you.

9:21 PM

I wish I had a shoulder to lie on.
I miss you.

2:21 AM

Seriously, I nolonger know what he wants. I admit, I still like him but I doubt its love. Everything just didnt seem to worked out after that incident. I know that it was wrong of me to take him for granted initially, when we first started dating. I was ignorant, childish, wilful and unreasonable. Basically a tough nut to crack yet he tried his best to give in to me, took care of me and showered me with unconditional love.

I used to be pretty xiao mei mei and pretty much just took everything he did for granted ( what do u expect? I was only 14 then). I might not show it out, but I really really appreciate everything that he did. In the first place, he was brave enough to even date me. I mean, I had 7 ex-bfs and my longest relationship then was merely 3mths while most of them lasted less than a week. Any guy in their right frame of mind would probably try to stay as far as possible from me. Yet he took up the challenge and I was like his 2nd gf. =/ Brave kid right!!! Deserves a courage award. =D

Intially, I thought the relationship wouldnt last for long just like all the others. Guess I was too immature and took it as a play thing. The feeling would usually fade away within a week and I would usually avoid them during the week together, but things just isnt the same towards him. In fact, he was the first guy that I really fell for. The usual playgirl me, actually stayed in a relationship which lasted for nearly 3 years.

For the first 2 years, he really gave his best and I really felt loved. He had to bear with my stubborness, constant wilful tantrum. I'm not the fastest person on earth, in fact I believe Im one of the slowest, thus he has to wait for me when ever we go out ( testified by my friends). Yet he never threw his temper but if I were to wait for him for more than 10 mins, I would start making a big fuss and would go on about it for the whole day.

Guess he had enough and decided that he couldnt stand me anymore, he started giving in less and less. In order to maintain the relationship, I had to give in more. Unlike him, I wasnt able to give him my everything like he used to. Without him giving in, I couldnt feel the love he had for me. It was more like a relationship which whereby Im alone and dating myself. =/ Guess the 2 of us were just too used to each other, thus unwilling to let go of both parties. Its probably nolonger love, but like family and no one would want to lose their family members rite.

Hmms. Actually I doubt he would do that for me anymore. Im uncertain of how he feels and I guess he doesnt love me anymore, perhaps like but definately not love. Saw my friend's nick just now, usually I would either ignore or think that its corny. Yet I actually felt that his nick was sweet when it was a mere ''I am sorry''. Geesh. Think Im going crazy liao.

Still, I thank him for loving me in the past. If it wasnt for him, perhaps I will still be that xiao mei mei. Maybe to him, I am still that little girl like I used to. Ohwell. I do miss him leis! WTH. I duno how Im feeling either. Geesh. Was it used to, or was it love?

-Thanks a dozen for loving me. Despite all the mean things u have said. C= Though you might not love me anymore, or less than before. Im happy that u once loved me. -hugs

1:27 PM

Met up with Drey and Bella in the morning and went back to the old school. I was late, as usual, and by the time we reached Yck the concert was already over. So we have to squeeze squeeze with the kids in order to get to the Staff room.

Wahlau, the school really changed alot. The last time I visited the school was when I collected my O level results, which was like, erms, quite some time ago. Then now the school still got newly furnished walls and tainted glass around the stairs leading from the canteen to the hall. =/ Though the school did upgrade its building, but the standard of the kids seems to be degrading. To think that my batch was bad enough, the current ones are worst than us. Did some catching up, met some of our teachers and when over to NYP for lunch.

We were roaming around the school, when they suddenly asked me why I chose NYP since it kinda didnt suit me and I should really be in JC. Though I didnt reply them, but I think everybody who knew me since secondary should know the reason what Im doing in NYP lo.

Anyways, went town after that. Roamed around as usual, accompanied Drey for dinner then went down for BN's class chalet. The chalet was AWESOME! Too bad I couldnt stay over. -sobs. There were great people, food and cakes! Especially the yummy satays. Thanks for the presents, flowers, hugs and kisses! Really appreciate it alot, especially since Im like SUPER DUPER anti-social and yet they did so much for me.

Initially when I saw the cake, I thought it was for En. It was only till the bdae song and the many many candles then I realise that they are actually celebrating the 4 virgos bdae all at one shot. The scene was bloody touching, made me 'lao bak sai'. Ohwell, Im emotional OKAY! Really really love the presents, especially the cards. Wahaha. Didnt know that I was crowned ''Tu Hou'' aka Queen of Gambler till earlier on. =] Thanks peeps!

-Ying hearts BM0613 aka BN

1:26 AM

For first time, in a very long time... I felt heartbroken.

11:52 AM

ARGH! Im gona be sooo dead, couldnt get a single POM shit in my brains. OHWELL! Gona stay up all night to memorise that shit... hmms... or maybe not lar. WAHAHA!

Saw his nick and it kinda got me started. If u realised, guys would usually prefer to get an Ipod video rather than an Ipod nano. I seriously dont understand why people would actually prefer that to nano. I mean nano is tiny, handy, stylish and what not. Its like most girl's dream mp3 player. Although I have to admit that its function sucks, so does its quality. Still, its like SOOO much better than an Ipod video can!!! If I were to have a choice, I would definitely get a nano. Besides, its much cheaper than a video. Even if I were to get one for free, I would probably sell it off and get a nano instead. =.=

The only reason I can imagine guys wanting a video, is that it allows them to store porn inside. Since it is afterall an Ipod video and nobody in their right frame of mind would store like 20gb of songs inside that gadget. If you were to know anyone that does that, please be a dear and recommend them to a psychiatrist and also introduce them to me. Just curious about what kind of songs they have inside. Wahaha. Moreover Ipod nano's screen is too small to view porn, even if its merely pictures. Still, viewing porn in Ipod video song mehs? The screen also bloody small, only about the size of my v3's screen or even smaller. I rather go buy vcd and watch lor.

Still, his was free anyways. How come I dont get such deals. Hais. Lucky him, I would really appreciate it if you could sell yours away and buy me an Ipod nano. =D

Anyway congratulations!! You just got yourself a FREE Ipod video. So now you can view porn as and when you like!! YEAH!! Remember to share with me the next time we meet up ok! =D -hugs

10:26 PM

YooHoo. Turns out that Qing wasnt abducted by aliens, it was her lappy instead.

Went out with Ling and Qing today, was playing 'house of dead 4' when this REALLY REALLY irritating staff came and chased us out when we were like halfway through the game. I can understand that it was our fault that Ling was in school-uniform and we arent supposed to enter arcades in sch-u, but still, WE ARE INCREASING YOUR REVENUE LOR! Which person in their right mind would choose to chase away their customers instead of earning money. =.- Just imagine lar.

'Auntie..1 bowl of fishball noodle..' Auntie ignores you and continue gossiping with her fellow workers. When u ask her why she ignored your order and she replies, 'WAHLAU! You are in sch-u leis, u expect me to sell to u? Go home change first lar.'

STUPID RIGHT! Why are there so many stupid rules in Singapore. Seriously, whats the deal about going out in school uniforms after school. If there were to be so many restrictions, why impose sch-uS in the first place. Since we are above 16 and are legally allowed to enter the arcade, I dun see anything wrong with it. Even if we were to wear our sch-u in.

There was this time when I wore some random school PE tee into the SAME arcade and got chased out too. The thing was, IT WAS LIKE DURING THE SCHOOL HOLIDAYS and I have bloody GRADUATED from secondary school! Geesh. I got sooooo angry that I started crying, (ok, a whimpish behaviour but really couldnt help it, was TOOO angry liao) and Kenneth couldnt stand it either(actually its more of me crying lar) and volunteered to bash the guy up. Though I would really love to see him being whacked and see how cocky he can still get, but I would really prefer him to apologised to me instead so I rejected Kenneth's offer. Now to think of it, maybe I shouldnt have. Then their staff wouldnt be so cocky now. =.-

Actually, I have a super high expectation of my bf. Especially since we were together for almost 3 years, I really expected him to understand me better. Its like when I said 'dun contact me', I really never meant things that way. Its really like a thing that gals do? We always have a tendency to say something, but mean otherwise. 'Kou shi xin fei', aiya. Guys are probably just to insensitive to know that.

So I kinda expect him to know that, but somehow he just doesnt. I understand that its my fault for to mislead him by saying that, but still WTH lor. We were together for like near 3 years and he doesnt even know that. -.- Hais. I just want to feel that his there, that he still loves me. Isit that hard? I never seem to have trouble feeling that way until after that incident. Somehow things are never the same.. Never like they used to. I dont think that what im asking is overboard, it isnt right? or it is? Still, after all that had happened, I kinda feel that I nolonger love him. Yes, I still like him but the feelings just isnt the same anymore. Maybe I'm just too tired, tired of his MCP ways, tired of him always trying to make himself look good when something crops up to know that I still love him.

Everything is fading.. and maybe one day, I will wake up realising that he is no longer important to me. Im not sure if Im the one being childish or him, but personally, I think both of us are. If you really do love me,do grap hold of me, before EVERYTHING fades away.

Question: How do you know when it is love?
Answer: When you feel your heart aching each time you're disappointed.

Question: How do you know when it is not love?
Answer: When you no longer feel any heartaches for any disappointments.

10:23 PM

WAHAHA. Im updating merely cause Ling asked me to, so u better be proud k!! =] hmms. Actually not much to blog about. Other than the fact that a certain someone is really getting on my nerve, with his indecisiveness n passiveness. Really feel like kicking his balls, but... better not. Since his the only child and im not really that evil anyway. Aiya. Shall be kind n forgive him. Seriously, I really got no idea what is going on and dragging on just made everything fade away. Maybe he feels the same way too, thats why both parties refuse to budge. Wah. If this continues, things are really gona be over. =.=

Anyways... Qing seemed to have dissapeared. Havent seen her online for a couple of days already. Must be abducted by aliens again. Wahaha. Faster come back hor!

Contributes to my puppy fund...anyone? =D

11:46 PM

Hmms. Im seriously amused by how some people act or react when shit happens. Especially when they are supposed to be mature. Although there isnt a specific age which classifies people to be mature or immature, but still, shouldnt people learn to act their age?

I rmb talking to Ling sometime ago and both of us agreed that alot of people dont seem to act their age now adays. Be it dressing wise or behaviourer. It appears that the younger kids are dressing in a VERY mature manner, not that its a bad thing, but it just makes me feel very out of place. I mean me and my friends, being the supposedly older ones dont even dress that way! While for the older ones, the seem to act in a *ahem* childish manner. =.= No offence lar, but thats merely our personal opinion. They feel like they are the only 'right' people on earth, and anyone who thinks otherwise are wrong or at fault. Its not like there isnt anything wrong with people our age, obviously there is, I mean nobody is perfect rite? It just happened that we are oblivious to it. =]

Rmb the long forgotten or hopefully forgotten NYP incident. I really dun wish to bring it up, but I really cloudnt help myself. Seriously, why does everybody seem to be condemning her? Saying all those mean things and spreading rumours about her? Its not her fault that somebody stole her phone. The worst part was, none of us knew exactly what happened or even know her in person. So what rights do we have to pass such comments? I admit, I did believed in the rumours and it was ignorant of me to do so. I have learnt my lesson but shouldnt others learn theirs too?

Did anyone tried to put themselves in her shoes? Luckily for that poor girl, she has got lots of people who loves her and shes strong enough to pull it through. If u were to be in her shoes, will u be able to live life the way she did? Although I might not know her in person, but I seriously admire her courage. Anyways, shes a nice person lar. Too much info is noooo good.... wahaha.
Since shes happy the way she is, I think we should just drop the matter. =]

Okay, back to my point. Digressed a little too much. =/ I almost forgot why I talked about her. Haha. Like I say, most people dont seem to act their age and the cycle seems pretty upside down. Although she is merely 18 yrs old [I think], she definitely seem more mature than some of the people who is older or even much older than her. I know of this 21 yrs old. Erms. Not know lar, she is definitely NOT someone I wish to know. I mean, not that Im against 21 yrs old its just that... erms, basically, she doesnt behave like one. =.=

I dare not say that Im mature but from what I see I think that, and I stress that I think [I din caps the 'think' cuz it looks awfully funny with both I n think in caps] that Im definitely more mature than her. I admit, although Im 17 but I still do play eye games once in a while. Cant help it lar, really cant stand those little brats sometime but Im cutting down on it. =D

Ya, back to her. Although shes 21 but the things that she do DEFINITELY doesnt seem like one. I mean, which bloody 21 yrs old in her right mind, would actually go through all the trouble to CREATE a NEW blog, just to FLAME a 17 yr old girl. Pretty dumb rite. The worst part is... she tries her best to retaliate but her english was too fluent, soooo fluent that we couldnt uds what she wrote. Its not that my english is good, I admit my english is pretty bad. STILL, hers is much worst than mine. So imagine. =]

The worst thing is, she is a mother of 2. Yet she chose to deny the fact, isit really that shameful to own a kid? Honestly, I seriously dont see anything wrong about having 2 kids. I mean, if u have the ability to keep them, raise them, feed them, educate them den I think its perfectly fine. Its not like u are ill-treating them or something. So whats so humiliating about having 2 children? On the irony, you ought be proud of them. Afterall, they are your flesh and blood. I mean, there are people who has to face things alot more humiliating than having 2 kids (Which I personally object to, since I dun find having 2 kids humiliating. I mean, they are such lovely creatures!! =D) and yet they are brave enough to admit it. Have u ever thought about how your kids will feel when they found out that their Mummy actually din acknowledge them? Gesssh. Think about it. Makes my blood boil.


Okay... So I digressed alot, but my main point is... WHY DUN PPL ACT THEIR AGE!!! ARGH!!!


Piece of advice, please act your age soon. Otherwise not only I will blow up, alot others will too...

SAVE THE WRLD PPL!! ACT YOUR AGE!!! LET XIAO MEI MEIS BE XIAO MEI MEIS AND LAO TAI POS BE LAO TAI POS!!!

2:17 AM

WAHAHA!!!Sry Qing for the LATEEEE post. Wahaha. My post, as promised. Haha

Went out with Qing yesterday, been ages since I last saw her. Did some catching up and I kinda suspect that she got brainwashed by aliens over the past 2 week, more about that later.

Anyways, roamed around cwp and we ended up in popular. Okay lar, not that seeing Qing going to popular is anything unusual lar... but the thing was that she was actually looking at those kind of origami stuff. I can uds about the star part, I mean afterall it was for *ahem* ma. However, the weird thing was that she actually wanted to fold things for Ling n me. Geesh. Though its kinda weird lar, but still...its really really SWEET!!! THANKS QING! =D

The origami aside. After knowing her for like sooooo long, yesterday was the first time I saw her finished her food. I mean, not like those finger food but like a MEAL and it wasnt rice or noodle. It was pasta leis!!! The thing was, I couldnt even really finish my plate!!!

See, now u get what I mean when I said that Qing got brainwashed? Being the usual 'da xiao jie' her, she would NEVER EVER be able to finish her food. On usual days, I will be the one finishing her food for her. Geesh. Aliens are attacking Singapore right after their 41st birthday!!! Thats really really sad. Erms. Alright, maybe its Malaysia. zzz. =.=

Qing... Dun worry alright, Ling and I will save you from the aliens. Wahaha. Even if we fail, there is still ........ =D

7:06 PM

Hmms. Im not sure if u patronise my blog, but I sure hope u do.

I really hope that the thought of drpping by has crossed ur mind. Though my hpes of it isnt high, but still, if I dont... u should noe wad I mean. Since u uds me the best. =D

9:21 PM

Hmms. After much pondering, I have came to the conclusion that we are from 2 very DIFFERENT worlds. Though on the outlook, the 2 of us look pretty much the same. Compatible in a sense that both of us look pretty, erms, wild? However we are on very different grounds.

Take him for example, he is pretty much against ''gangsterism''. However, he fights. Not occasionally, but pretty often. While me, the tamer looking one and indeed the more tame one, has got tons of ear piercings in which he doesnt fancy at all. As wild as I can be, I hate smokers. Not really hate, just that smoking is not something wich I wld wan my frns to do. Less to say my boyfriend, however he smokes. He likes tatoos, but i only like those with woodstock in them. The only thing that we can agree on, is probably only drinking.

The strangest thing about us is that. Both of us are extremist, his a male chauvinist, while im a feminist. So there's hardly ANYTHING which we can agree on. He doesnt like to give in, neither do I. Sometimes I really wonder how on earth did the 2 of us end up together, or used to be. =.=

I used to think that I really uds him, until when shit happens and things starts getting messy then I realised that maybe..just maybe.. I never understood him at all. Even right now, I dun know what his thinking. Be it like,love or hate. I used to be able to see, be able to feel that he loves me. haha. But that was the past la! Right now, things just dun seem the same. Ling [not LingSquare] told me that it was because he used to give in to me, regardless whether it was his fault or mine. But still its merely our assumptions. =]

Right now, it seems as though the 3 of us are on the same boat. Though each of us claimed to have let go, but our heart says otherwise. Haha. Sometimes I really feel like prying the guy's brains open and see whats inside. At least that will save us some misery. Geesh. Im crapping already. =/

Haha. But still, Im hanging on and so are the girls. =D

6:09 PM

I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived.

QING'S FIREFLY!!!
pls return to her... =]

1:47 AM

Geesh! Sandy should be proud of me. Haha. I actually managed to change the ugly blog photo to something else. =]

The Grass is always Greener on the other side. =)

3:43 AM

I HATE SUNFLOWERS!!!!
especial those with catapillars!!!
ARGH!

2:57 PM

BLOODY FCUK!
MOTHER FUCKER. BLOODY CHEEBYE!

ARGH.

im just so vulgar now adays. geesh.

2:47 AM

AHEM! testing testing.

WAHAHA. this is gona be my VERY first entry. told sandy that im gona write something very inspirational, but i cldnt tink of any!!!

haha. who knows maybe someday i will end up a famous blogger like xiaxue!!

haha. can actually earn money through blogging, get free food and trips. wahaha.

ok. i have came to the conclusion that blogging is an extremely tiring job.
my brain juice running dry. zzz

5:42 PM

ELO.!

I'm Sandy & I'm blogging on Cindy's behalf. Cindy's a lazy bum! So lazy she don't even come online. Pffs. Wahaha. I don't know what to blog laaa. Haiyo. :(

Until next time... ((:

3:00 PM